Sunday, October 20th, 2002
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7:01 pm
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ben en fait je me suis souvenue que j'avais un compte ici alors bon, vu que pxie y vient touojurs a ce que je vois, et oui miss, par la ben je t'ecris!
mais je sais pas quoi dire!
je vais bien, je cherche un apprt, je bosse a carrefour, euuu... voila... je suis celibataire et heureuse de l'etre enfin sauf depuis que j'ai revu mon ex a perpigan... ca m'a perturbee... et sinon ben j'espere avoir de tes nouvelles!
bisous
emilie
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Thursday, October 4th, 2001
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4:36 pm - well
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i feel good except that i don't manage to see my psy for a letter to excuse my absence in partiels...gggrrr...i must have it tomorow!!!impossible mission!!!
but except that...my job in the cyber is cool,i love naima and she loves me...
Studies will start soon...
i hope everything will be alright...
current mood:  calm
current music: divine comedy
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4:32 pm - well
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i feel good except that i don't manage to see my psy for a letter to excuse my absence in partiels...gggrrr...i must have it tomorow!!!impossible mission!!!
but except that...my job in the cyber is cool,i love naima and she loves me...
Studies will start soon...
i hope everything will be alright...
current mood: calm
current music: divine comdy
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4:32 pm - well
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i feel good except that i don't manage to see my psy for a letter to excuse my absence in partiels...gggrrr...i must have it tomorow!!!impossible mission!!!
but except that...my job in the cyber is cool,i love naima and she loves me...
Studies will start soon...
i hope everything will be alright...
current mood: calm
current music: divine comdy
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Friday, September 21st, 2001
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11:11 am - life.....
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life is weird...
it's been a long time since i have update my LJ...welle so many things happened...i don't remember where i stopped...
well...my summer was very very hard...happily i have naima...
we wanted to go to The R?union but now since yesterday she doesn't want to go any more...its too long to explain...
Well i work in a cyber caf? now...i will return to my father's...and to the university...
with naima it's strange we have too take time...but i try to be positive...
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Monday, July 9th, 2001
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10:10 am - yeaaaaah!!!!!
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coucou!!!!!
me revoila!!!!!je suis de retour a montpellier!!!!!
avec une super peche!!!
et oui!!!!qui veut venir courir avec moi????matin et soir
ou au moins une fois?
vous vous rendez compte!moi sportive!!ben si!!comme quoi
tout arrive!!mais je vous explique , je m'entraine non
seulement pour garder la forme , mais aussi parceque je
vais m'engager dans l'armee!!!!et si!!!pas que je sois une
pro militaire ni quoi que ce soit...mais bon....quand on
voit la paye et puis ce a quoi on a droit et le fait d'etre
form?!!!bref ma decision est prise!!!!lol!
le truc c'est qu'il y a des tests physiques...donc je
m'entraine , et c'est bien comme ca je vais entretenir une
bonne forme!!!et comme ca moi a 40 ans ben je serais ps
toute flaque!!hi!hi!hi!
voila ben sinon je suis a la dech grave donc si vous voulez
sortir faut m'offrir un coup a boire !!lol!
mais bientot j'aurais des sous!!!!et ouiiiiii!!!!
aaaaa!!!tout finit par s'arranger!!il faut s'accrocher!!!!
ca faisait longtemps que j'avais pas ?t? positive comme
?a!!!possible que ma copine y soit un peu pour
quelquechose...elle est trop mimi ma Na?ma....elle est
venue expres de perpignan passer le week end entre le
boulot!et puis elle m'a envoyer des fleurs...c'est pas
mignon ?a???on s'entend super bien et ?a c'est super
cool....juste peut etre que j'assure pas vu que je veux pas
m'engager...donc pas de promesses ni de projet...mais bon
c'est pas plus mal!!on profite de nos bons moments!!!!!!
ben voila!!!!!!!
enoooooormes bisou a tous!!!!!et a tres bientot!!!!!
mylenabou (le retour!)
current mood: energetic
current music: red hot chili peppers (under the bridge)
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Monday, July 2nd, 2001
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4:43 pm - i will ....i will what????
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well i'm not at home until the 8 or 9 of july...
i've started today my "conduite" to hav my euuuu....permis de conduire!!!!lol
i'm happy...what can i say...i will speak more when i'll be back but i just want to make kisses to all my friends of the net that i love!!!!!
soon i'll be back!!!!
HUGS
emilie
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Thursday, June 21st, 2001
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8:03 am - wou....
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well i'm at home until tomorow...because of the "fete de la musique"...since monday i woke up every day very erly,and that's very good!!!i can do many things!and i can sleep at night...well...
richard still send me mails..GGRRR he doesn't seem to understand that i want to forget him!!!
well ...what can i say...i feel good..well i feel better and that's thanks of catherine...
current mood: calm
current music: no one(audrey is sleeping)
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Monday, June 18th, 2001
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3:25 pm - well....
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well now i feel a bit beter except that richard came gain to take what he left at my home...i didn't want him to come in so i put everything in the ..woups....escalier...bullshit...my english is going worse and worse...so...he's now far i hope...Naima has called me she will come here soon i hope...Manu du*idn't have the car so she will come here probably on wednesday...
I'm a bit upset but some people are taking care of me so...i let them do....
one bad thing:my internet conexion doesn't want to work..so i'm in a cyber...grrr....
well....
current mood:  anxious
current music: euh..the radio..beurk..florent pagny...
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8:52 am
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oh!i've forgotten somthing important with all that!!!!
today i will see a friend of mine i haven't seen since more then two years!!!a girl , we were very very very good friends , we went out together...then he returned with her boyfriend...it hurted me so much that i prefered not see her againb..but now i miss hr , so last week i sent her some sms and the nex day she called me, before many problems to have my number!!lol
i'm happy//well...one good thing....hope she won't forget me!!!!
current mood:  confused
current music: sheril crow
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7:54 am - i'm..eeuu....traumatis?e!!!!
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yesterday my best friend Richard , or beter to say ex best friend tried to kill me two times...i has taken medicines and was drunk...bah....it's a very bad story but he just "?trangler" me two times..i thought i will died...i'm very upset and i cry easily...i have slept about 3 hours this night...everything is going bad...worse abd worse...i 'm at Cathy's home..where i'm in security and feel good...but...i feel broken... well....now i'm really fed up!!!
current mood:  nauseated
current music: ella fitzgerald " rake the a train "
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Sunday, June 17th, 2001
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1:45 pm - i feel bad....
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well yesterday i wrote what happened to me but no reaction..my own problems don't interest anyone...it doesn't matter and in fact i think it's normal...but it hurts me a bit...i always try to be kind with people...to protect them..but now it's over , i will be a monster!!!!i will tell things to people even if i must regret it later...really two personns care about me , my mother and catherine...well maybe a bit romain and richard....but well...i fel alone ....my mind is strange....happyly i have a psy now and i hope she will help me....
today it's sunday , and i will do nothing!!!except maybe a little of cleaning and do " cartons" well....
current mood:  bitchy
current music: rage against the machine "killing in the name of"
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Saturday, June 16th, 2001
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11:14 am - well....bis!
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i'm just back from the psy therapist...i stopped in a bar "la caf? de la mer " de gay pub of my town , i took a capuucino and i wrote a little...tha psy was fine , she asked me some question of my life , i see her again the 25 of june...i hope i will speak a bit more... i didn't tell her i'm lesbian!!!lol...but i told her some things quite important , i didn't speak about catherine...but the next time sure...well..i don't feel better ...but maybe she'll help me...we'll see....
current mood: confused
current music: mr big
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11:14 am - well....bis!
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i'm just back from the psy therapist...i stopped in a bar "la caf? de la mer " de gay pub of my town , i took a capuucino and i wrote a little...tha psy was fine , she asked me some question of my life , i see her again the 25 of june...i hope i will speak a bit more... i didn't tell her i'm lesbian!!!lol...but i told her some things quite important , i didn't speak about catherine...but the next time sure...well..i don't feel better ...but maybe she'll help me...we'll see....
current mood: confused
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8:44 am - well....
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it's 9.45 ...i'm smoking a cigarette again...in a few minute i will have to go...i feel so weird , so upset ,inside of me it's like ....well i don't know how to say it....
i only hope that this psy will help me and be kind...her voice seems....but...i only heard her on the phone so...well ...we'll see...i really don't know what i want nor what i need... i'm a bit lost ... and my heart just cries inside of me...never showing it...everyone thinks that i'm happy and cheerful and ....But nobody knows how i'm bad...some personns know some things...but nobody really knows...and maybe it's that that upset me so much...dunno....well...it's time for me to go...
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8:08 am - a day frightening me...
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today i feel weird,it's 9 o colock and i'm yet wake up because i go for the first time to a "psychiatre"....I don't know what i will tell her... i 'm affraid about thinking of things that upset me...if someone could say me something kind to help me even if i know that i don't worth it...To wake up today , i had first a ...woups a " reveil " , then the phone programmed , then the reveil again , then my mother called me from her job to help me and really it helped me , i said her i love you and it gave me a sort of strenght , but i'm very tired and a bit desillusionned...Well i'm going to have a shower and then it will be better...
current mood: anxious
current music: prince
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Monday, June 11th, 2001
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1:14 pm - nothing to say....
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Well...i've nothing to say...my life is taking a strange way....today i have to take rdv with my psy...then many things...i'm thinking about lots of things , my job , my flat , elfie , naima , audrey ...lots of things ...i'm a bit lost but i will manage to do good things i hope...
current mood:  weird
current music: les innocents
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Saturday, June 9th, 2001
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11:17 pm - gggrrrrrrrr
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Thursday, May 31st, 2001
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8:06 am
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it's only 9o'clock and i'm yet at home!!!!cathy made me wake up about 7:20....and i went to bed about 1!!!!but i couldn't sleep....i was thinking too much.....about lots of things....
today i've many things to do....and i will do everything because i have the time....little problem,i don't find my "arret de travail" to my boss....welll....grrrr....
current mood: optimistic
current music: muse
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Wednesday, May 30th, 2001
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2:57 pm
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well....yesterday a one o clock...i took a taxi to go at cathy's home.....
i felt so bad.....i was a bit stone (i bought some shit)
well i don't know where my life is going now....
i have to finf something,some solution....arg!!!!
"i hate myself and i want to die"
why are there people on that stupid earth that love me!!!!!!!!!if nobody loved me it will be easier to die....but they don't let me the right to die....that's unfair.....well....
so i have to live that stupid lif which give me so much pain.....well i know there are good things...but.....i really don't mind!!!!!!!
someone could help me????i have someone....i have catherine.....well ....
we'll see.....
current mood:  apathetic
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